The man with the least iq in the world(me).

[justkryptic]

Hi guys, well this was about 6 years ago or so, ok, everything was going normal in my life but I fell in love with a girl who is a thousand times prettier than me is like, I literally have 0 chance of having something with her and everything was going normal, we became friends I fell hard for her and then a "friend" of mine came into the picture who started hitting on her, I (who was never more than a friend of hers) got mad about it and in the following days I was an asshole to her and it's been a long time since we talked and I still like her but I still have no chance of dating her because I was an asshole to her and I don't consider myself an attractive person (like her) and that's it, that's it, I had never told anyone about it and I thought it would be a good idea to do it.
Details(extra):
she was not my first love
I've fallen in love with girls but not as much as I have with her.
That's it, I'm an idiot for doing that(yeah).
I haven't talked to her and haven't heard from her in 6 years.
Do you guys have any advice other than the death penalty for me?
(I've probably missed more details but I don't remember everything because it was a long time ago).