No hope, nothing really matters

[Zee]

I don't really have any hope for anything. I'm not trying to beg for attention, cause I'm pretty sure I'll be seen as one begging for attention.. I just turned 16,it's my birthday. My friends don't even remember it but who cares lol it isn't that big of a deal. I literally have no hope for anything anymore, I can't really be happy nor sad, basically numb. Happy stuff aren't really happy anymore, Im not satisfied for anything, maybe I'd be satisfied for a moment or so but then get back to my previous feelings. Everything in my life sucks, I don't understand the point of living and continuing to live like this. I just haven't killed my self yet due to me becoming a bigger disappointment to my family,and for not being able to actually put a knife through my neck. I'm just telling you guys how I feel cause I don't want to tell any friends or family how I do feel since I'll probably never see any one of you again. My country's economy is so bad that we barely have food on our table due to it being too expensive and due to 80% of the country is without a job. Anyways like I said I'll bee seen like I'm probably just seeking attention but I'm just letting stuff go off my chest hoping it feels good but doesn't, nothing matters. Anyways goodbye hope you guys enjoy your day /evening
Edited by Nanoteknolo, 21 December 2021 - 04:27 PM.