My thoughts about suicide and trying to survive with my sister for the last 3 years.

[terafufad]

Hello everyone, my name is Temirlan and I am from Kazakhstan. For the last 3 years I have been living with thoughts of suicide, due to the fact that I lost many people close to me (brother, father and mother in an accident 3 years ago and a girlfriend a year earlier). At first, I was held back by the thought that I wanted to help my close sister and did not want her to grieve even more. I had large debts, over $9,000, left over from my parents, so it was a difficult period for me. And now I’m already at rock bottom and on the verge of suicide, I think about it every day and try to think positively, because I still have a little sister. But I am still under pressure from the guardianship authorities due to the fact that our living conditions are poor; if this happens, I will definitely fold my arms and give up.
my telegram: @swuter