I'm sad

[Sarlumen]

In don't know what my life has come to, I feel so broken. I don't wanna beat my meat to some porn video anymore. I want to feel loved. Nobody texts me, don't even know why I have a phone, I know its quarantine and I can't really meet up with someone but ffs, just as I feel like I have a chance with this girl I like, we are in lockdown. This year has been so shit, I fuxking hats my life, its pointless, I am a waste if oxygen. I'm not gonna pretend like I don't have it good, but I'm not string enough to pull through, parents divorced, grandmother died, and in between all of this my favorite dog died. If god does exist, WTF are you doing. Thank you if you have made if this far, don't bother with the "you can do it" messages, I'm not gonna off myself, I'm just in a bad place right now.