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So, 3rd time trying magic truffles...
1st time was around 5-6g dosage, relaxed, fun overall, interesting
2nd time was around 8-9g, it was the first time feeling goosebumps all over my body at some time while enjoying clasical music...
3rd time was today with a dose of 12g
Soo... yeah, this time was definately different...
The first part of the trip was all about having my eyes closed in my bed, body calm or having random minor movements... Crazy visuals and thoughts about my eyes pretty much rendering everything I see... First thoughts of "belonging" to the black/empty/calm universe started to emerge...
Second part, around an hour later, I kinda opened my eyes, same position in bed, but my vision was kinda... blurry? Like if you try to blur your eyes now... you see different things, mostly shapes, colors... pretty relaxed but thoughts were going crazy...
The third part is the interesting one... around 2-3h into the trip, I went to my living room, it was sunny so I kinda lay down into the sofa while sun hits my face... I swear to god, I felt like body and soul are completely 2 different things... somehow, due to pure chance we are right here, in this body, in this planet, whatever... the body is all about short-term, you gotta keep it alive, eat everyday etc... the soul doesnt require such things... but these 2 things live together... its a constant balance between meaningless body satisfaction (food, sex, etc) and exploring our soul which doesnt require anything... everyday is a balance of these two...
I cant really explain but I tried to conlcude with some notes that I took in my phone...
The body is a randomly allocated, by the universe, (chemically random and without any purpose) vehicle that translates nothing into something and althought we exist by pure luck... our body translates everything into something more easily understood/digestable meaningful bites of satisfaction... (usually these satisfy mostly the body) . . Otherwise .. We'd go crazy into the "Unstructured limitless random empty and full spacious subconscious spiral"
So, what do I feel now... I got confirmation that life is meaningless and yeah, we need to somehow have fun with it, idk what that means but... for some fucking random reason we exist and here we are.. we can experience sex, great food, good memes and people... let's take advantage of that because we are lucky sons of a bitch, not like fucking amoebas who cant feel shit... right?
1st time was around 5-6g dosage, relaxed, fun overall, interesting
2nd time was around 8-9g, it was the first time feeling goosebumps all over my body at some time while enjoying clasical music...
3rd time was today with a dose of 12g
Soo... yeah, this time was definately different...
The first part of the trip was all about having my eyes closed in my bed, body calm or having random minor movements... Crazy visuals and thoughts about my eyes pretty much rendering everything I see... First thoughts of "belonging" to the black/empty/calm universe started to emerge...
Second part, around an hour later, I kinda opened my eyes, same position in bed, but my vision was kinda... blurry? Like if you try to blur your eyes now... you see different things, mostly shapes, colors... pretty relaxed but thoughts were going crazy...
The third part is the interesting one... around 2-3h into the trip, I went to my living room, it was sunny so I kinda lay down into the sofa while sun hits my face... I swear to god, I felt like body and soul are completely 2 different things... somehow, due to pure chance we are right here, in this body, in this planet, whatever... the body is all about short-term, you gotta keep it alive, eat everyday etc... the soul doesnt require such things... but these 2 things live together... its a constant balance between meaningless body satisfaction (food, sex, etc) and exploring our soul which doesnt require anything... everyday is a balance of these two...
I cant really explain but I tried to conlcude with some notes that I took in my phone...
- Phrases stuck in my mind all the time while tripping: Collapsing from within, brain melt, messy middle (for some fucking reason we chemically exist and out daily life is the "messy middle" between inception and death)
- Life is pretty simple, whatever you do must bring you more joy than dissatisfation
- Sleep is when our soul gets the body out of the way and reconnects to our deep universe roots
The body is a randomly allocated, by the universe, (chemically random and without any purpose) vehicle that translates nothing into something and althought we exist by pure luck... our body translates everything into something more easily understood/digestable meaningful bites of satisfaction... (usually these satisfy mostly the body) . . Otherwise .. We'd go crazy into the "Unstructured limitless random empty and full spacious subconscious spiral"
So, what do I feel now... I got confirmation that life is meaningless and yeah, we need to somehow have fun with it, idk what that means but... for some fucking random reason we exist and here we are.. we can experience sex, great food, good memes and people... let's take advantage of that because we are lucky sons of a bitch, not like fucking amoebas who cant feel shit... right?