bacanlol098
Blue Team Defender
2
MONTHS
2 2 MONTHS OF SERVICE
LEVEL 1
400 XP
Hawaii is working out well, im somewhat in disbelief that im still involved with all of this business, the last thing I need is people watching me waiting for me to fuck up so they can ruin my life...It feels like I have so much to lose, sure I could...set up an amazing opsec, purge all my involvement strictly through it and make another account to be another person. That seems like a distant fantasy and fuck me some of those douche bags are probably reading this thread if they haven't already violated my phone and house to have surveillance over me, biding their time to take me in for some twisted fucking purpose, knowing you guys...makes my life complex, but not for nothing, I've gained...so much knowledge, family vibes, we're not close, but we're not exactly enemies...I can be myself with you all in ways I never have been able to with other people...but fuck me it just had to be criminals...the very thing I want..connection...openness could be my death sentence, don't get me wrong I love complexity and chaos, very anti autism I know. But still its true to some degree, my job for example..fucking love it. Almosy never the same thing twice with rare exceptions.
I just feel like I can't talk about this. I can't say my name, I can't be honest, I must hold back..my truth for fear that i will become vulnerable to an attack from someone with malicious intent towards low hanging fruit like myself in the c.to community or...someone ive passed off and made resentful,, and i have no way of knowing what or who's laying out their in wait for me to fuck up and say something exponentially vulnerable...not that I haven't already, fucks sake im so bad about using my vpns, Dell charge backed a monitor SE so now I've got fraud on my financial record, which I could honestly give a fuck because I'm done with the united States, Americans are not my people..too bloodthirsty wolf pack...and quite frankly I find them all to be too pathetic for their personalities. All bark and no bites...superficiality at its worst and everyone's doing it...it feels like the entire country is falling apart sometimes. Chaos in our leadership, riots, military chaos, economic chaos, some things are going well..
God I find it so annoying when I want to say something then I realize its too..vulnerable and I should not say it of the consequences could be seemingly insurmountable.
Feels good to vent. Thanks for reading if u are.
I just feel like I can't talk about this. I can't say my name, I can't be honest, I must hold back..my truth for fear that i will become vulnerable to an attack from someone with malicious intent towards low hanging fruit like myself in the c.to community or...someone ive passed off and made resentful,, and i have no way of knowing what or who's laying out their in wait for me to fuck up and say something exponentially vulnerable...not that I haven't already, fucks sake im so bad about using my vpns, Dell charge backed a monitor SE so now I've got fraud on my financial record, which I could honestly give a fuck because I'm done with the united States, Americans are not my people..too bloodthirsty wolf pack...and quite frankly I find them all to be too pathetic for their personalities. All bark and no bites...superficiality at its worst and everyone's doing it...it feels like the entire country is falling apart sometimes. Chaos in our leadership, riots, military chaos, economic chaos, some things are going well..
God I find it so annoying when I want to say something then I realize its too..vulnerable and I should not say it of the consequences could be seemingly insurmountable.
Feels good to vent. Thanks for reading if u are.