XSxx
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I have a slew of mental issues, medicated for some but for the most part they're fairly present. They are a huge factor in making life hard and really dampen living a "full life".
The hardest part of persuing treatment is worrying that I will lose who I am. I already struggle a lot with feeling real and knowing who or what I am. I feel like getting better will change me too much and I will no longer feel like "me". I've spent decades learning what feels real and what feels like me and thinking of the potential to have it all taken away sends me into spirals of anxiety and mental episodes.
I understand that it's probably for the best to "get better" but I'm so terrified of forgetting or losing everything.
Not sure what this post is even for, just a cry for help I suppose. How to deal with life and knowing what is the right choice.
Apologies for the ramble.
The hardest part of persuing treatment is worrying that I will lose who I am. I already struggle a lot with feeling real and knowing who or what I am. I feel like getting better will change me too much and I will no longer feel like "me". I've spent decades learning what feels real and what feels like me and thinking of the potential to have it all taken away sends me into spirals of anxiety and mental episodes.
I understand that it's probably for the best to "get better" but I'm so terrified of forgetting or losing everything.
Not sure what this post is even for, just a cry for help I suppose. How to deal with life and knowing what is the right choice.
Apologies for the ramble.