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Addiction is ruining my life.. I'm loosing everyone that has ever been close enough to love me..

jessemhero

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i know what i've lost. i find myself thinking about the simple things, such as what my kids are doing in school, what clothes they wear or remembering how my daughter's hair smelled when i would be with her. The seriousness and direness of heroin addiction is evident whenever i find myself speaking of it. I desperately want my life back. I want to see and spend time with my children again. I want thoughts on what i need - more heroin...
I lost my family's trust completely. i just found out my girlfriend was pregnant. she told me on Christmas eve after a big argument we got in to and as i was telling her to pack her suitcase and leave, she broke down and told me she was pregnant..
Since then i haven't really felt it sink in yet. In doing more and more heroin every day that goes by. To numb whatever it is i'm feeling.
fuck, i feel lost. I don't talk out in the open very much about my addiction.
i'm ' hoping someone out there will listen. i just want to say to all who are reading this thread, it means a lot.
im not a bad person but heroin turns me into a monster and i need to kill that monster. how? I don't know the answer to that question just yet.
 

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