Cyka
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Hello HQ Peps
It's been a total of 6 Months since I last visited this Forum.
Only occasionally I checked in and saw how everybody was doing.
Anyways, to clarify myself on what the reason was for me to leave the forum was sorta weird.
It surprised many, looking back at the threads I posted I can't help myself but to cringe at feel bad about it.
I didn't fake it though.
Basically, I had a mental breakdown.
2020 and the beginning of 2021 have been the thoughest years for me so far and there has been a lot of shit going on.
First of all someone on this forum threatened me to leak private images and videos from my phone.
We talked and this guy straight up sent me a video of my girlfriend when we where sending each other ("forcing ourselfs to act cringe") videos. [img]
When I first saw that I was basically frozen shook.
I couldn't talk, I could barely see or hear.
I knew this guy most likely had my entire phone gallery and chats on his computer saved.
Ontop of that, someone managed to get over 150GB of Data from my PC,
atleast I thought so.
He threatened me to pay him obviously but I never did and he also never leaked any data.
Good to know since If any private shit would have been leaked I would have killed myself on the spot the next morning after :)
Anyways, apart from the entire me getting his ass whooped part, my dad has been really sick for the past years, fighting against mental anxiety, depression, borderline syndrome and
Dissociative identity disorder.
The part about me having partial schizophrenia attacks was not a lie either. This is one I have been struggling a lot with the past year.
You can barely concentrate and you always hear or see stuff that simply isn't there.
We moved a lot over the timespan of 7 years and I always seem to move away from my friends once I am finally happy again.
Since I have to repeat some classes in school due to 'reasons' I managed to get the worst class in hell that completly hated me and I was the outsider ofc.
No talking to anybody for one entire fucking year, and of course I fucked up with the girls as well.
To summarize all this garbage my life has been shit. Just recently a close childhood friend passed away, visited the memorial celebration and met up with some old friends from 4th grade that I haven't seen in many many years, which was also quite heartbreaking. By far one of the saddest days I've ever had to experience.
At the moment I am doing quite okay.
Things developed, and I am happy to be back on this forum.
I wanna apologize for everything, once again, and to everyone I might have disappointed in some way.
Over the time I didn't spent on here, I mostly concentrated on friends and Trackmania TAS.
Sounds redicoulus, but it's actually the most fun thing I've done for a long while.
My YT Channel is going at it as well, over 300 Subs so far and over 5k views per video,
simply because this game is so hyped atm and the TAS tool is quite new.
Also managed to find a new skip and nobody saw over the past 13 years [img] [img] [img]
Anyways, I am also a chess god now [img]
don't take that for granted, but I play in a team now, which has been one of dreams after I finally got back into it thanks to OsUmAtRiX. [img]
I might have forgotten 1 point or another but I think I said about everything I wanted to get out before I start back on here.
From now on Happy Pappy ProjectTrauma is back and is ready to disinfect this forum once and for all and bring HQ Posts for the LQ Plebs [img]
It's been a total of 6 Months since I last visited this Forum.
Only occasionally I checked in and saw how everybody was doing.
Anyways, to clarify myself on what the reason was for me to leave the forum was sorta weird.
It surprised many, looking back at the threads I posted I can't help myself but to cringe at feel bad about it.
I didn't fake it though.
Basically, I had a mental breakdown.
2020 and the beginning of 2021 have been the thoughest years for me so far and there has been a lot of shit going on.
First of all someone on this forum threatened me to leak private images and videos from my phone.
We talked and this guy straight up sent me a video of my girlfriend when we where sending each other ("forcing ourselfs to act cringe") videos. [img]
When I first saw that I was basically frozen shook.
I couldn't talk, I could barely see or hear.
I knew this guy most likely had my entire phone gallery and chats on his computer saved.
Ontop of that, someone managed to get over 150GB of Data from my PC,
atleast I thought so.
He threatened me to pay him obviously but I never did and he also never leaked any data.
Good to know since If any private shit would have been leaked I would have killed myself on the spot the next morning after :)
Anyways, apart from the entire me getting his ass whooped part, my dad has been really sick for the past years, fighting against mental anxiety, depression, borderline syndrome and
Dissociative identity disorder.
The part about me having partial schizophrenia attacks was not a lie either. This is one I have been struggling a lot with the past year.
You can barely concentrate and you always hear or see stuff that simply isn't there.
We moved a lot over the timespan of 7 years and I always seem to move away from my friends once I am finally happy again.
Since I have to repeat some classes in school due to 'reasons' I managed to get the worst class in hell that completly hated me and I was the outsider ofc.
No talking to anybody for one entire fucking year, and of course I fucked up with the girls as well.
To summarize all this garbage my life has been shit. Just recently a close childhood friend passed away, visited the memorial celebration and met up with some old friends from 4th grade that I haven't seen in many many years, which was also quite heartbreaking. By far one of the saddest days I've ever had to experience.
At the moment I am doing quite okay.
Things developed, and I am happy to be back on this forum.
I wanna apologize for everything, once again, and to everyone I might have disappointed in some way.
Over the time I didn't spent on here, I mostly concentrated on friends and Trackmania TAS.
Sounds redicoulus, but it's actually the most fun thing I've done for a long while.
My YT Channel is going at it as well, over 300 Subs so far and over 5k views per video,
simply because this game is so hyped atm and the TAS tool is quite new.
Also managed to find a new skip and nobody saw over the past 13 years [img] [img] [img]
Anyways, I am also a chess god now [img]
don't take that for granted, but I play in a team now, which has been one of dreams after I finally got back into it thanks to OsUmAtRiX. [img]
I might have forgotten 1 point or another but I think I said about everything I wanted to get out before I start back on here.
From now on Happy Pappy ProjectTrauma is back and is ready to disinfect this forum once and for all and bring HQ Posts for the LQ Plebs [img]